Happy New Year...2016, what will you bring?

HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM LONDON!

As some of you know and many of you don't, we moved to London last April.  I have called it my "great escape."  It has taken the pressure off me and my grieving process. This "great escape" has allowed me to really step forward in my journey to find happiness again. 

My life will never be the same - mornings will never be easy - but, I believe that it might be okay to be happy again.  Even as I write this, I feel a twinge of guilt.  But, still, "I rise..."

But, I know that living in the cloud of grief without at least making the effort to be happy again is also a disservice to Tasha and her memory.  It allows the day of her death to override all of the days she LIVED!!  She lived a little over 10,000 days - certainly not enough - but, her life is so much more than the one day she died.

SO.....here I am....welcoming 2016 and thankful for the opportunity to find some happiness in my life, while continuing in the discovery and search of my authentic self.

There are no people to judge my process here - no one to tell me to put my "big girl panties on" and get over it - no one to ask "how can you be happy?" - It's just me walking the line...looking up to the heavens, asking Tash if she is proud - to send me signs - to carve my own path in my life that continues without her, but, still honoring her life and memory.

I love London and while I have been writing for myself, I am ready to begin sharing again - this is a great country - a stoic country - a country that opens its doors to provide opportunities to so many - and now, it has given me the opportunity - to feel - to explore - to be more me than I have ever had the chance to be!

And, now, we have entered a new year...with more chances...and, I am ready to take them all...

2016...the year of simple abundance...the year of exploration...the year of love...

There is no better gift I can give my husband, family and friends than myself - a me comfortable and at peace with myself.  This is the year I continue letting go of what and who doesn't work for me any more...it is an opportunity to celebrate the life I have left!

While continuing to miss Tasha every day of my life, I will continue toward happiness...I will choose joy!

So, watch out, 2016...here I come!

Cheers!